My last bout of school results are out, and it was really an amazing revelation to me. I had never expected such wonderful results, even though I had dreamed of it. I told myself that I must stop thinking about it, prepared myself for the worst every single time I thought about it, told anyone off if they asked me the reason for it, and then I was pleasantly surprised.
It’s really a miracle and a wonder I’ve come this far, and I must really say it’s by God grace. I have never felt so sure that I’d not get an A for my results. In fact, I was even ready for a B- or C. Then the most unpredictable thing happened. They say that God rewards those who labour for Him, and I have had so many occasions of rewards (such as my good results, two nominations, even though I didn’t get them), and ability to secure a job that pays reasonably better. Everyone thinks Justin is zai, but in fact Justin is not. I really want to praise Him for all He has done, even though I am not the most faithful in my quiet time with Him. It had always been maybe later, it can wait, or this is crucial. But God never fails. And it is really beyond my understanding.
I have wondered (and perhaps am still wondering) whether one of my interviewers were right, and that since I did well in Accounting I should remained in the line, but I’m more convinced that my dreams should not perish because I do well in one area. In fact, I believe that I may be better in more than one area, but that’s for me to explore, and to see what happens next.
To Jasmine:
It’s been 6 years walking with you. You have never failed to give me the needed encouragement, needed support, and needed strength. You’ve steered me in the right direction everytime I lose my way, and told me the very important statement whenever I need to hear it. “You’ll always be my number one no matter what happens.”
I have never regretted going down on one knee, and right now, it’s on to our new phase of life. More unknowns, surprises, and winding paths for us to navigate. But I’ll always know that with you by my side and God guiding the two of us, there’s no way we can get lost, even if we want to.
To our new phase of life, cheers.
To the ThinkBoxers:
It was really a fun time with you guys. Crappy and hilarious moments, not to mention most importantly the intellectual discussions we have which make me wonder how did such a group like ours form.. I’ll miss those seminar room days where its just one day before the exam and we’re totally heck caring about what the exam is. And also when we’re so focused and sharing our notes with each other. I know it’ll be so hard to find such a selfless bunch when I leave school, so I sincerely hope that we’ll remain as closely knit as we are now. To Jas, KS, Chi, Dinny, Bee, Lydia, thanks for the fun trip we had in Taiwan, and for helping me with the most important moment yet in my life. You guys gave me a trip (and photos) to remember us by. To Yilun and Sandy who missed out on the trip, we really missed you two. No words can express perhaps the sadness we felt for not having you guys there. Nonetheless, I do hope we can get to meet up soon ya?
To NTU, NBS:
These three years have been the most stressful years in my life. Yet, nothing can describe the fulfillment that I have gathered from this place. People say time and again that it is a boring place. But the place is never boring, we just need to have the right company! I have met some of the best people in my life here, and had some of the best tutors. To every tutor who impacted my life, thank you so much for being the inspiration you are. I’ve gained more than classroom knowledge, more than life skills, I’ve gained a friend in so many circumstances. In my many years to come, I sincerely hope to be able to remember this wonderful moments.
To my new life ahead:
Yet so many uncertainties and stresses await, but I’m just glad it’s over!! Bye to school life, until we meet again. Surely I’ll miss the free time and holidays, but hey! You’ll never grow up if you decide to stay that way! My parents await my contribution to home, so I’ll see how it goes.. Need to plan my spreadsheet soon, and sit down and decide on how much to contribute and how much to save!!
Right now, I have this joy in my heart I cannot describe. Even though there is still waiting to be cleared for tmr, I thank God for what has happened today, and I will rejoice in Him.
